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Quote of the Day

If someone wants you to change, know that this is a set up to turn you into who they want you to become. People have a tendency to transfer their insecurities onto you and try to make you believe it is your problem. Don't get sucked into their madness.

An excerpt from my memoir, Light at the End, An Odyssey of Faith and Reawakening of a Life:

No matter what you may think, change is good. It makes you see things from a different perspective. The fear of change is that broken part of you that God can help you fix. Change can prepare you for what God has planned for you. The step I made was the beginning, albeit flawed, due to my fears, of a new life. Learn from your mistakes and keep moving. Never stop wanting to be better.

Let it Go!

You cannot fix someone who does not know they are broken!

Bitterness

Don't stay bitter with the ghost of your past. Live in the spirit of the new day.

It will get better

You will cry a river now, eventually that river will become a pond, that pond will become a puddle, and that puddle will become a drop in the bucket and the start of something new!

WOMAN ON FIRE

"It's time," the voice said. "Time to go out and do what the Lord told you to do. You have been sitting on this information long enough. Go out and encourage the world. Let them know that they don't have to live the life they have been this way anymore."

It is true. I have done this for far too long. I am ready to move forward. You cannot leave your comfort zone over there, to enter into another one over here.

God said, "Get up! Share what you've learned. Be an encourager."

I didn't think about it at first, but I had allowed myself to become a recluse again. My son brought it to my attention after I told him of how I met someone who, out of the blue, shared her pain with me. I listened and advised. I couldn't understand why she had cornered me, or the fact that she thought that I cared. Did I have a look of concern on my face, I wondered, or what it could have been. The thing was, I did care. I found out that she was much older than me, but I know that that doesn't matter. The thing is we all have issues. I talked to her and watched as tears formed in her eyes. There was something familiar in them, that same hurt I once had. She was the old me. I, too, thought it would never it would end. I made excuses as to why I allowed it to go on as long as it had. Yeah, she had that deep wound.

My son made me realize that God meant for me to help people. Not to just say a few words. After God, my son is the only person who I would really listen to, because he knows the real me. He knows my struggles. The good thing about it is, he tells me what I need to hear, not what I want to hear. I am the same way, so that is an inherited trait. His words resonated with me, "You deal with people, but you don't like to deal with people." That pretty much summed it up. He continued, "You have to open up and let people hear you. You really help people."

I started my odyssey two and half years ago. God has been with me always. I didn't have the confidence in myself to put myself out there and offer my advice. I felt that there were others out there more qualified, but who is more qualified than a person who lived through it and came out on the other side. This is bigger than me. This is God telling me that I need to do it. He has been showing me all this time and I ran from it, out of fear. I have stop running. You can only run for so long and become exhausted, because whether you realize it or not, God always wins in the end.

I will repeat to myself several times a day: I am a confident woman and God is with me, until someone whom I have help believes that of themselves.

New Year, New Me 2017 Edition

I made it another year. I think about all the things that I went through this past year: I started off living at the house I reluctantly purchased in 2013 and let it go bank to the back. I wouldn't necessarily call it being foreclosed on, more like letting go of something with the knowledge that something bigger and better was on the horizon. Surprisingly, I wasn't the least bit sad about "losing" the house. I never felt that that was the house I wanted to live out my life in. the house was bought when I assumed that I was going to spend the rest of my miserable life, at the time, working for someone I truly needed to get away from.

I ended up moving in with my mother. Lord knows I begged and pleaded with the Him to not send me there. I could almost handle living with the person who birthed me, but not the one who made me feel like I couldn't live my dreams and do what I wanted to do with my life. No, I knew it was going to be a fate worse than death. Don't get me wrong, I love my mother, it's just that I did not want her to make me feel like what I was doing was the worst mistake that I could have made.

What's interesting is, I went from walking away from my job in early 2015 to begin the life God has planned for me and I saw so many things change. Not only did I experience things that are found in scripture, Philippians 4:12, I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. 
Needless to say, I wasn't surprised when I lost 50-60 lbs. that really needed to go. God did not let me starve. I always had food, I just didn't have what I wanted to eat. The Lord sustained me. I did not know what to expect when I left my job, but 2015 was an eye opener.

Then when 2016 came and I went to my mother's house I couldn't understand why the lord sent me there instead of directly on to where I want to be, but He knows best. At first things where annoying, but not as bad as I thought. She didn't crowd me with "I told you sos," she made sure I had food. evidently, my weight loss was not as wonderful to her, I gained 10 lbs.

Then there was a  problem with my mother's finances that had gone on for a couple of years and no one could figure out the problem. she is not good with money, modern technology, or understanding certain things that most people take for granted. Most women of her generation had husbands to take care of them. The lord had me sit down one day and go over her checkbook and for the life of me I couldn't see the problem, until one day when I balanced her checkbook and knew how much money she would have. Imagine my confusion when two days later her account was overdrawn again. I took her bank statement and contacted her bank. the associate and I worked for a few minutes until I noticed an amount I knew shouldn't have come out of her account and then another. When the associate searched and the light bulb went off in my mind, the problem that she had been having with her bank account ceased. So, I began with trying to get some semblance to her finances.

It was the lord, sending me to her house to correct her financial problem.

Another time, a few months later, I was here when my mother had to be taken to emergency due to, what we later learned was, acute renal failure.  She hadn't been eating that much and taking too many pills for blood pressure, etc. a female cousin of my mother lives with her, but she isn't a young woman either. I know she wouldn't have known what to do with what was happening to mom.

After a four day stay in the hospital, I set up an appointment with her Primary Care Physician, that Mom decided to take over when we got there. I had questions, but I couldn't ask them.

 After years of having to talk loudly, I set up an appointment to get her hearing checked, something she did not want to do. We found out at the appointment and after the hearing tests, that she is deaf, so she needs hearing aids. She isn't happy about that, but finally  confessed to not being able to hear a lot of things.

While I have helped her out with these things, Mom has helped me as I get myself ready to continue on my journey,

it's not just because she's my mother. All I am going to say is, if it weren't for the Lord putting me here for this moment where would we both be?

I am not saying that everything with us is peachy, but it's not pulling out each other's hair bad either.

Here's to the promise of a wonderful 2017 and all the great things the Lord has planned for me this year. 

My First Novel

I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life until my son advised me that I needed to do something with it. He had just started college and I had nothing to do, but I always knew that there was more to my life than just working a 9-5 for someone else. I had written from time to time and was quite good at it. I was constantly frustrated that I and bored with my life at the time. The thought of what to do failed me. One day when I was on my way to church I had an epiphany: the entire story of a novel came to me. I thought for a moment then said out loud, "Okay, Lord. Is that what you want me to do? Be a writer?" It was an interesting love story, so I thought, "Okay, then I'll do it."

When the service was over I races home to announce to my son that I was going to be a writer. He approved, but told me to do my research. I sat down later and proceeded to write my first novel, ever. It was wonderful the way I was able to put the story together. I really didn't think that I could do that, but then I realized that we are all sent to this earth with a gift and I had finally discovered mine. I was there all the time, because I had always gotten good grades in English in high school and college, but never gave it much thought. Even when I received the highest grade for a well written term paper, or when my creative writing professor made it a habit to read my papers to the class, albeit no one knew who the writer was.

The exciting part was when I finished it and had it self-published. That was so cool. Several people read the book that I had written and they wanted to know what happened to the characters. So what I ended up doing was writing a sequel. I knew that that God meant this for me all along and I have written several stories thereafter. Now, if only an agent would take time to read my stories...

Let him go!

How long do you plan on allowing him to abuse you? Yes you, the one who continues to lie to herself and make up whatever story to get you through until he does something else or says something else to make you feel bad about yourself. Whether its physical, mental, or emotional, abuse is abuse. Trust me I know what it's like to live that lie. Mine was mental and emotional. I fell in love with him when we were in high school. We hadn't even turned sixteen. The writing was on the wall when I had my sweet sixteen birthday party and invited him and he not only came to the house, but he brought his ex-girlfriend who he had broken up with right before me. They never came inside the house and as a matter-of-fact they proceeded to have an argument across the street.

I truly went through too much stupidity with the father of my son. Yes, my high school sweetheart and I eventually got back together and later had a child. But, I allowed myself to waste too much time and energy on this man. Don't get me wrong, when we were good, we were 78%, never 100%, but I settled for crumbs, because of my blind love. No one could tell me that we would ever be apart, because we loved each other. IDIOT!! Love isn't 78%, but I didn't want to think about that. Like the horse with blinders, that was me. I used to ask him questions about other women and he would lie about them to make me feel better, because who really wants to hear that the man you have spent so much of your life with is seeing other women on the side.

Over the years there were women who somehow "found" my number and would call me to let me know that they were in love with him and he them. We had broken up time and again, but I had been with him for so long that I didn't know how to react to another man, plus he would be threatening if he thought that another man would be around his son. He also continued to degrade me. Now mind you, I am not a bad looking woman, but I have been told much better looking than the women he would date behind my back. This had to do with him being insecure and an unattractive woman would dote on him and make him look good and no other man would be interested in them like they would me.

The problem was he wanted his cake and eat it too. He wanted to keep his foot on my neck by making me feel insecure. He would tell me that whatever job I had, one of his female friends had some fantastic job, making some great money in a, "You're so pathetic" tone. I was too fat, what other man would look at someone as big as me, I thought, or he tried to make me believe. I went from a size 4 before my pregnancy to a size 10. My weight did become a roller coaster ride, but that is what stress does. My hair, which I kept short, was not long enough for him, and these other women-his friends-had long hair. In fact, they wore weaves. Hello? I won't knock a weave if that is your thing, and some women know how to rock a weave, but I went through the long hair thing for years and I decided that it was time to cut it all off. Basically, cutting him out. His family knew me and loved me, and he wouldn't dare introduce another woman to them. Every time I was too far away from him, he would "soften" his heart and tell me that he still loved me. He knew what buttons to push, because he knew that I truly loved him, or so I thought.

 He could never spend enough time with our son. I can't tell you how much that has hurt me. Most men would love to have a son, but his need to do his thing was more important. I did all the raising, because my son would grow up to be a man and I wanted him to be the best that he could no matter what.

Then I wised up with the help of the Lord. It took me years to finally let go of the pain, and hurt, and bitterness. I realized that this isn't the life that God meant for me to live and when I think of Scripture: 

Isaiah 53:5 But He was pierced for our transgressions; He was crushed for our iniquities; upon Him was the chastisement that brought us peace, and through His wounds we are healed. 

Now that, my friends, IS the Man who loves me and you.

Gone are the jokes about my weight, I lost 50 lbs. I no longer care where he is or who he's with. I don't have a job, I am an author, my own boss. While he still lives with his mother, I have moved on with my life and waiting for the man God is sending to me. I am happier than I have ever been in my entire life. My son is almost thirty and doesn't have much of a relationship with his dad, although his father does call him from time to time. I raised my son to be respectful, no matter what. He has a bachelors degree in art and has his own business. My son has been the best thing that came out of that relationship. I thank God every night for him. He has been the best gift I could have ever gotten. Not so happy about the things we went through, but it's over. Thank God!

So, do yourself a favor, let go. Let go of the toxicity. You don't need him to be happy. You don't need him to be with you to raise a good child/children. You have to put your trust and life in God's hands. It took me a while, but it was the best decision I ever made. As I matter-of-fact God has dominion over my life and he makes all the decisions. Our Creator is the best man for the job.

Check back with me. I have more thoughts on this thing...

Amazing Grace

I once was lost, but now I'm found. Was blind, but now I see. These were not just the words to a hymn but the realization of my life. Once upon a time my life was absolutely pathetic. I was in a deep depression. I ate all of the time. I smoked all of the time. Every day that I woke up I could not wait for the day to be over. I woke up at 5:00 a.m. and prepared for the dreadful day ahead, but before departing for work I would say a prayer asking God to help me make it through the day. I would also ask if it were meant for me to stay at my place of employment to please give me the strength and the patience, but if not, please help me to move on with my life.

Not exactly sure when I started praying about my situation, but I do know that it got to a point that I just couldn't take it anymore and I knew that before anything drastic happened I needed to go to our Creator. I had a relationship with God, but it wasn't the type I needed to have. I knew that He forgave our sins, but I knew that I wasn't a "perfect" person. I had issues and I did not know what to do with them. My issues were not extreme, but they were keeping me from getting from point "A" to point "B." I knew that I was called to be a writer, but I couldn't get off the merry-go-round of my life.

I had written last year in this blog about walking away from my job, but I didn't know at the time just how impactful that decision would be to my life and the relationship I now have with my Heavenly Father. I realized later that not only did I walk away from a paying job where I had been for over 14 years, that I had "killed" the good credit rating I had finally rebuilt after years of struggling with it, but I did not worry about any of it. I let go and I knew that God was going to take care of me. And He has!

Sure, I lost my car and my house, but those are just things. He has still provided. I have access to a car at any time. I went home to my mother, that's another story, and I don't have to pay rent. I also know that that will all change very soon, as the Lord gives good gifts.

As long as you have faith in God, (Mark 11:22).

...whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours." (Mark 11:24)

I read Scripture every day and have built a wonderful relationship with Him. I know that the Lord has me on the path that I am suppose to be on. It has been an interesting and awe-inspiring journey so far. Stay tuned for the next chapter

How to encourage your child's gift

All of us are placed on this earth and given a gift, a talent. Some people go through life never knowing what that gift is, which is quite sad. When my son was four he drew a picture of a half moon. At the time, at first I thought it was cute, then another thought was could he possibly be a budding artist. Sometimes, you need to go with your gut. Now I know that some people might say that he was just a pre-schooler and he really didn't know what he was doing, but here is the thing, I did at the time, think twice, but knew in the back of my mind that if his parents were creative, then maybe he would stand a better chance of taking those genes to the next level.

For a while I let his talent go. He never said anything about it nor did I. When he was in elementary school and middle school none of the teachers mentioned it, so his gift was placed on the shelf and collected dust. By the time he entered high school he had art classes and always  earned an "A", but it wasn't until his junior year that his art teacher brought to my attention that he was a very gifted artist and she really wanted him to attend an art school. Her approached reaffirmed what I knew when he was four years old. I knew then that I wasn't just a mother who thought her child was another genius. No, I knew he was smart, but I knew he had something else: a God given talent that I wanted him to show to the world.

I asked him, right after I spoke to her, did he want to go to art school after he graduated and he said he had considered it. I know some people are more practical and insist that their children major in something that "make sense," but that is not encouraging your child. That is fear, not having faith, and putting your own comfort ahead of your child.

Face it, a child is born and you take care of him/her, but we do not own our children nor do we own their lives and newsflash: we don't always know what's best for them. If that were the case then we all would be billionaires. Life is suppose to be about love and faith, not about sorrow and regret. Too many times we can recall something we could have or should have done, but that is your problem not your child's. A child is not asked to be born. Think about it, when was the last time a child came down and tapped you on the shoulder and asked you to give birth to him/her. I always gave my son respect, therefore he respects me. He is a grown man and to this day will ask for my advice and I ask for his, because, as I said, nobody knows everything. The art school he attended was a bust, but with his talent he really did not have to go.

There were mistakes made along the way, but I am happy and so is he that he was encouraged to live his life, after all I won't be with him always and at least I can say that I wasn't that overbearing mother and I didn't let him make his own mistakes. He can always say that his mother let him be himself but was there when he needed her. And that's all any of us can ask for.

One Year Later

Well, I am back to update where I am on my journey to as a full-time writer.

I have been through a lot, it hasn't been easy, but God has been with me every step of the way. I have written another novel, Once 2wice-a romance. I have started working on a crime fiction series titled, Duke Wellington, P.I., about an African-American, no-nonsense former beat cop who emits the gritty edge of the North East Coast streets where he was groomed. A proponent for children and young people, Duke discovers, through a series of events, the shocking truth about some of these young "victims." The subtitle is The Murder of Innocence.

I decided to mix things up a little in my writing and go with crime fiction after writing another romance novel, titled Once, 2wice. I am been jotting down notes for the second in the Duke Wellington, P.I. series, Major Murder. I am writing another romance novel, Just Don't Want to be Lonely, about a young man unlucky in love who is fixed up on blind dates with women who are friends with his female co-workers. Things get chaotic when his soon-to-be-retired employer's daughter takes charge and sparks fly between the two and a monkey wrench is thrown in when one of the co-workers he once dated and still cares for discovers that she may be in love with him. I also wrote a children's book, Ruff Gets Answers, about a dog who oversleeps one morning and finds his owner has already left to start the first day of school. Trouble is, Ruff has no idea what school is and sets out to get the answer.

Some things have happened that the Lord has helped me through and it really leaves me in awe of our Heavenly Father. His grace, mercy and love for His children. I am no longer in my house, I am living with my mother, but I am not bothered as I know that God has me on the path I am supposed to be on. I am excited about this journey and I continue to be in awe of the wonderful things He does for me. Stay Tuned, things are changing for the better as we speak... 

Music For Novels

 When I listen to a song I usually get the inspiration for my next romance novel, this has happened more times than I can count. Case-in-point, I listened to Someone to Love, by Ruff Endz, everyday when I was writing the sequel to my first novel Another Chance. I listened to a few different love songs when I was writing Once, 2wice, and I started listening to Just Don't Want to be Lonely, by the Main Ingredient and got, not only the title, but the idea for novel.

I am a romantic at heart and I have love songs from each decade starting in the early 60's from different music genres. I can listen to most of them, such as: Classic R&B, Classic Country, Classic Rock, (60s, 70s, and 80s). The music from the later decades really had to grab my heart strings. I am very finicky about my music and a song has to give me "chills" in order to make my playlist.

I am currently listening to a few love songs and there is no telling where they will fit in my current list of novels I am writing.  

   

The Whiz Kid Genereation

Is it just me or have the people in charge of making the most important decisions in your life getting younger and younger and not caring about how they are affecting your life? I have been going back and forth about my mortgage with Wells Fargo, but it would appear that their main concern is playing telephone tag with me and nothing is being resolved. I get one representative that is "taking care" of the issue, then the next thing I know a few weeks later there is someone else on the case. And really are they reading from a script? I hear, "Hello, Ms. So- and- So, I am John Doe. I am going to help you with your issue." Okay, I allow this person to help me, reluctantly, but then when I try to reach them again, I don't hear from them for one or two weeks.

Recently, I was given another representative, and things were fine for a while, but when it got to where it appeared more than she could handle and outside of her expertise we started a round of telephone tag. One night she even called me at 10:30 p.m. I know that they are two hours behind me, but someone who is on the ball would have taken the time to look at the clock and realize that it was too late to call. I talked to her, but I made her aware of the time.

Another time we made an agreement that I would go to my local branch the next day to fill out a form that absolutely-read life-or-death- had to be returned that day. We agreed upon the time that I would go. The next day I called the young lady who I deal with at the branch to let her know what was going on. This young lady, bless her heart, had to rearrange her lunch in order to accommodate me. I rushed to the bank to get her to send an email to the mortgage representative to let her know that I was there. We sat for five minutes then called the 1-800 number only to find out that the mortgage representative didn't even work that day. Say what? I get that emergencies come up, and I assumed, silly me, that another representative would be able to help. Unfortunately, the representative who I ended up speaking with didn't even know what form I needed to fill out, because it was not on her screen to tell her. As best as I could, I explained what I remembered the other rep saying I needed to fill out. "Oh, so you need that form! I can email that to you right now," she said as if she had discovered the cure for cancer.

Over the course of a few weeks I have talked to a few reps who are going to help me with my problem, but I am given to someone else each time. I am trying to be patient, but they are crossing over to my reserved patience that I save for crying babies and elderly people who repeat themselves.

Once upon a time, there was such a thing as one-stop shopping, when one person could help you with a problem and that was it. That day is long gone I'm afraid. The funny thing is my thirty year old son reminded me that it is his generation that is making the decisions now and that reality unnerves him as well. He just had a situation where, instead of getting a simple insurance quote that he asked for, the representative gave him a quote of the coverage he needed. Excuse me? That is not what he asked you for. I have decided that from now on once I get to where I want to be I will be done with corporations. I think I will only give them cash. I realize that the days of compassion are gone and we are left with those computer whiz kids who are great at reading a script and knowing nothing about empathy. Heaven help us all.

A day in the life of this writer

I had to give some thought to what I do as a writer every day. Well, the thing is, I don't do the same thing every day. I like to mix it up a little, so to speak. I typically will wake up between 7-8 a.m. eat breakfast(usually a Pop Tart and tea. Not really a big eater), exercise, then take a shower. From 9 a.m. to 12:30 p.m. I write. I have a half hour break to regroup or eat a snack and from 1:00 p.m. until 5:00 p.m. I watch documentaries of crimes and get ideas for my stories.

Right now I have been spending a lot of my time researching and compiling information for the cases for my Duke Wellington, P.I. crime fiction series. I never realized that people were so mentally unstable and the things that they do to carry out their crimes are crazy, but enough about that. I also take the time to flesh out a story idea that has come to mind. It is a thrill when you get another story to work with.

I tend to go to the library two or three times a week to check out how my books are doing in the eBook Marketplace. Touch basis with people on Facebook and Twitter and get more information and download more videos of documentaries on crimes. Yeah, I know that sounds creepy, but somebody's got to do it. I have compiled so much character information for my series that I can write several books.

Some days I may just write the entire time or I may watch crime stories. So, there is never a day of me doing the same thing that I did the day before.

I think, personally, that if you do the same thing day in and day out it becomes repetitious and boring. Writing is what I love and it is not meant to bore me. 

By the end of the day I have done what I set out to do and have accomplished a lot. I feel that if I get things done then the day isn't a waste of time. It doesn't really matter to me whether or not I write a book ever day, just as long as I am thinking about what I can produce next. 

The Method to the Madness-Idea for Duke Wellington, P.I.

I got the idea for the character Duke Wellington, P.I. when someone asked me, since I was considered a romance novelist, could I write a book that even men would want to read. Now, I know that if a person likes a good story, they would read anything from any genre. I am aware that people have a preference on what kind of books they will read. I gave it some thought and then let it go for a little while.

Writing romance novels was a safe bet, as I know that women like to curl up to a good romance and a glass of wine or tea. I am a romantic at heart and I know what I would like to read, ergo a romance writer. I will admit that I did not wish to be pegged as just a one genre writer, so I needed to revisit my decision.

One day I had read about the pros and cons of casting Idris Elba as the next James Bond. Typically, Bond is a Brit, but there was so much ado about Bond being white and Idris Elba is, obviously, not. A couple of days later, I heard question pop in my head again, "Can you write a book that men would want to read?" Eureka! People are against the idea of Idris playing Bond and I need to write a book that men want to read. I knew what to do, and kill two birds with...you know the rest. I would write a character for Idris to play. The character would be a African-American private investigator and I will turn it into a series.

Thus, the character Duke Wellington, P.I. was born. With his many cases we could go a few books and I would feel that I have done a great justice in helping a talented actor by offering him a fantastic character to play. I would have written books for men to enjoy and everyone is happy. I have come up with several ideas for the cases for the series. I even have an idea for a case that will find Duke going to the U.K. Now, I can't say that he will 'run' into Bond while he's there, but who knows what could happen down the line.

Duke Wellington, P.I.

**This is the the working introduction to Duke Wellington, P.I. in Murder of Innocence. The cover art is courtesy of my son, PrinceG.**

Natalia Rawlings and Kenzi Davis, were thirteen-year-old best friends who loved to have fun. Unfortunately, their determination to experience life no matter what happened led to their murders. It was too late for the teens to realize that they were better off playing with their dolls than with fire. Why were they in that old abandoned house in the first place? What happened? Why were their bodies disposed of in that trunk? The police were doing their best to solve the case, but their efforts were not enough for the mothers, Spencer and Joan.

Enter Duke Wellington a suave, no nonsense former beat cop who emits the gritty edge of the North East Coast streets where he was groomed. The African-American private investigator meets and befriends Pastor Charles, after the minister saves his son Devin's life after a car accident that claimed the life of Duke's wife and daughter. As a promise, Pastor Charles "loans" Duke's business card to his parishioners who are in dire need of his help. Such is the case when Duke is hired, (pro bono) to investigate the deaths of the two girls. Their brutal murders shock their families, as well as the community. The mystery is right up his alley as he is a proponent for children and works diligently to get justice for them.

What Duke uncovers during his hunt for answers takes him from ethnically mixed suburbia to the projects. He learns that the girls were in over their heads in their quest to have fun. During the mystery he is involved in a high-speed chase in his 1965 Corvette Stingray convertible. In the end he discovers the meaning of pure evil in a suspect no one expected.

Once, 2wice

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     Sydney Lawson is a young entrepreneur and has done extremely well in her life as owner of a graphics design company in Los Angeles. She also has a long-term boyfriend, David, who is handsome, wealthy and happens to adore her. Life couldn't be better.

     One day Sydney receives a devastating call from her sister, Stacy to inform her that their mother's cancer had returned and only has a few days to live. While Sydney does see her family, it is on her turf. Now, she must return to her childhood home, after 15 years, to take care of her family and get through this unpleasant time.

     Once she arrives, she is reminded of the things and people she left behind so long ago, namely, Tony Farris, her first and one true love. It also doesn't help that, while staying in her old room, she rediscovers her diary that details their love. Her life is further turned upside down when she comes face-to-face with him and those dormant feelings begin to resurface. During this time she learns that he is still in love with her. Oh yeah, David decides he wants to marry her.

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